Letter Goodbye!

I may feel wounded and hurt but I will never, ever regret the time we had.
I would redo everything a thousand times if I could.
I want to relive every moment because those were the moments that changed me as a person.
I became a better human being when I met you.
Sometimes the time, the place, the people, well, they just aren't right.
Maybe it wasn't the perfect moment we met? Maybe it was?
I will never place regret along with whatever it was we had.
Things fall apart only for better things to happen.
That's when the magic happens.
Goodbye, for now, my love.
Until we meet again.

I feel as if I am living an 80's movie.

I want you all to myself.
I am jealous of the moon and stars
As they watch you in your slumber.
I envy the sun for it gets to be the one
Who awakens you,
To see you in the moments before you wipe the sleep
Out of your eyes.


I am resentful of the sheets as they get to be near you
In the time I cannot be.

Your body is the vessel. It's the mind that I want.
It is what I am the most envious of.
I would give anything to spend even a millisecond
In your mind.
To see how you perceive the world.
To see how you perceive me.

Defining Love

Love can be a burden or a gift.
It can consume you
Tumble you around and spit you back out.
It can take you from this reality
Flip you upside down (or right side up?)
It can also be the most pleasant of days
Love can be the warmth on your face,
The small tickle from the breeze,
The stir of excitement in your core.
But once you fall in love there's no going back
Even when love wanes, you aren't the same person.
Love can be bitter or sweet.
A happy ending or a nightmare.

In the end, I felt love

When you were gone and all that stuff happened
I realized something
I realized that I win
I win because I can say, no matter what happens in the future,
that I knew him.
And if he isn't the one then the universe will bring me someone
else.
But in the end, I felt love.

It's when I look at you

And you see me 

But I know you don't really see me

Because this world has faded

Everything's at peace

And it's just you and the music

Thats when I am certain you are meant to do this.

To create 

To play 

To find yourself

It's the pauses in between the conversations

That you see who people 

Really are?

Insomniac

I awaken early in the morning before even the sun
You are what I think about
I go to bed late in order to stay near you
You are my insomnia
The lack of sleep is my sacrifice
They say you can't get it back
Well, good riddance
I'd rather lose sleep than lose you

Kundalini Awakening

She is primal

She's raw energy

She radiates passion, fire

Her eyes are like a temptress

Pulling you in to her world 

She is seductive

Spontaneous 

Wild

She is slinky like a panther

Once she has you, you are hers.

Whether foe or friend

Her being has captured you 

Like a car's headlights capture a deer

This is power.

Founded by the kundalini awakening....

I would be Prometheus.

I would suffer.

I would bask in the torture as my 

connection to you

My heart.

Is ripped away.

I would repeat this everyday

If it meant I wouldn't forget.

The Romantic Nightmare

For a moment, I forget about you.
I stop thinking of the possibilities.
The torture of not knowing.
I am in a void of complete
Nothingness.
For the time, it feels sweet
But then I miss you, I miss your torture.
I miss the forbidden love.
That's when I come back.
The romantic nightmare begins again.
The loving and not having persists.
The watching but not being
The deliberate pain of love is felt
like a hot knife to the skin.
I adore the pain.
Nothing but a romantic nightmare.