In that moment, he lifted my face to meet his. He looked me in the eyes and touched my chin lightly.Then he kissed me. He kissed me like no one's ever kissed me before. I could feel the love between us. And when he stopped, he paused and kept his forehead on mine. His eyes closed and his breath heavy, he spoke for the first time. "I love you. I don't even know what love is but I know I love you." The words floated out of his mouth ever so slowly, kissed my ears and continued into oblivion. Finally, he looked at me. 

His eyes were the last thing I saw before I woke up. Even in the sunlight, the green and brown orbs glowed as they faded away like a old movie transition. 

It was all a dream. A fantasy, maybe. One thing's for sure it wasn't reality.

Later in the day, when I see him I will think of the dream, as vivid as it was. I will imagine it and it will hurt when I realize that it wasn't true. He will look at me, as I daydream, as if to say, "Are you okay?" He will not know that he is the reason my face is twisted with worry. I will shake him off, acting as if I am okay, and he will accept. We will continue to do this song and dance until someone gives up or gives in. 

I hope that someone gives in because this love is killing me.

Letter Goodbye!

I may feel wounded and hurt but I will never, ever regret the time we had.
I would redo everything a thousand times if I could.
I want to relive every moment because those were the moments that changed me as a person.
I became a better human being when I met you.
Sometimes the time, the place, the people, well, they just aren't right.
Maybe it wasn't the perfect moment we met? Maybe it was?
I will never place regret along with whatever it was we had.
Things fall apart only for better things to happen.
That's when the magic happens.
Goodbye, for now, my love.
Until we meet again.

I feel as if I am living an 80's movie.

I want you all to myself.
I am jealous of the moon and stars
As they watch you in your slumber.
I envy the sun for it gets to be the one
Who awakens you,
To see you in the moments before you wipe the sleep
Out of your eyes.


I am resentful of the sheets as they get to be near you
In the time I cannot be.

Your body is the vessel. It's the mind that I want.
It is what I am the most envious of.
I would give anything to spend even a millisecond
In your mind.
To see how you perceive the world.
To see how you perceive me.

Defining Love

Love can be a burden or a gift.
It can consume you
Tumble you around and spit you back out.
It can take you from this reality
Flip you upside down (or right side up?)
It can also be the most pleasant of days
Love can be the warmth on your face,
The small tickle from the breeze,
The stir of excitement in your core.
But once you fall in love there's no going back
Even when love wanes, you aren't the same person.
Love can be bitter or sweet.
A happy ending or a nightmare.

In the end, I felt love

When you were gone and all that stuff happened
I realized something
I realized that I win
I win because I can say, no matter what happens in the future,
that I knew him.
And if he isn't the one then the universe will bring me someone
else.
But in the end, I felt love.

It's when I look at you

And you see me 

But I know you don't really see me

Because this world has faded

Everything's at peace

And it's just you and the music

Thats when I am certain you are meant to do this.

To create 

To play 

To find yourself