Premonitions

As I walk listening to music and people watching, I see it.

Clear as day. It has occurred for the past few months but this time it's stronger.

More vivid.

Powerful.

This time he has a face.

I look away thinking that my eyes are deceiving me.

But in fact they aren't.

I have seen us. Flashes of things that never happened.

First dates, kisses, marriage.

But is it true? Can someone really see this about their own life?

It doesn't work that way. I repeat this over and over again.

But there have been many impossible things that have been true.

I didn't believe I would be living in California. But that is in fact true.

I attempt to make sense of it all. I fail.

Is it possible for there to be one person in this world made just for you?

I don't know. I just feel as if I have to stand at the edge.

Blindly waiting for him, whomever he is, to take my hand and jump.